Where has the time gone?

It's crazy when I start to think about how much has changed in the last year. Last April Adam & I became engaged. We planned our wedding, and were married in October. Right around the same time we found out that we were expecting our little baby boy. We had our first PCS move to Pensacola,FL just one of many we will have in the future. We moved into our first actual home, nothing like living in an apartment when were in College. Adam started training, and I started interpreting...

The other day I started thinking about how things happen. I applied to Towson as a transfer student (as did Adam) but Towson was the last school that I sent in an application for. I submitted my application the last possible day, and never turned in an essay either. After being accepted to Hunter, and CW Post one with a full scholarship and the other with a partial- I still wasn't set on going to either of them. When I got my acceptance letter for Towson I was at work and my mom had opened it up and read it to me. Still not sure if I wanted to go to TU, never even visiting Maryland before I setup a weekend to visit the school and was sold on it after the tour. I sent my deposit in that Monday and started the process to transfer. I think one of the reasons I had decided on Towson was because I wanted to leave NY, at the time I thought it would just be a temporary move to obtain my degree never thinking that when I left home, I would never actually move back. Not something I ever thought would happen- me, permanently move out of NY? But it was and still is one of the best decisions I have ever made. By making one decision out of my "comfort zone" and going to school out of state, not having any family around completely changed my life. Adam & I met in August and although we both started at Towson with the thought we weren't going to date anyone..that didn't really hold up on either end since we started dating that October. Now, for friends and family that know exactly how we met know we didn't start off dating, or really even as friends. I always think, what were the chances that we would end up living in the smallest/ oldest dorm on campus? We could have ended up in the Towers and probably wouldn't have met. But as fait would have it, we did and the rest is still history in the making :)

But I truly believe everything happens for a reason...

I wanted to get out of NY, I wanted to leave behind part of me. Not in a bad way but, I wanted to start living my life for me. Before Adam & I met I had dated someone that was toxic and in order to be the person I knew I was I had to leave. If I stayed home, stayed local I would have commuted to a class, lived at home, and worked, which was fine the first two years, but I needed something new. And even though I worked two jobs while I was at TU I was living in the dorms, then an apartment. I experienced roommates, both good and bad. I was able to figure out who I was and what I wanted to do. I think that sometimes living home as a young adult you limit yourself as to what you want to do with your life. And with that one decision the day before the cut off for Towson’s applications, I never thought in a million years I would be picking which direction which way ”my path" would go. If someone had told me that I would meet the man that I would marry, and start a family with when I left NY I wouldn't have believed them...

Now, that it's about 3 weeks until my due date- I just think about how truly blessed I am to have such a supportive husband. He's so much more than just my husband, but my best friend, partner, and the love of my life. There isn't a day that goes by that I'm not thankful that we have each other. We work together to build and better our relationship and were always attentive as to what the other needs. Of course we have our disagreements like all couples do, and that's normal but in the (almost 4yrs) we've been together we have never had anything more than just that a disagreement and nothing that we can't talk out. I know that Adam's going to be an amazing father not only because how amazing he is with me but beause he's had such wonderful parents/role models in his life. As I know Im going to be a great mom because my mother has always made sure our needs were met even when it wasn't always easy for her. Sometimes people will ask me if Im nervous about the baby coming, and I wouldn't say nervous but more anxious and excited at the same time. Im anxious because its new- I mean our entire world is going to change...for the better but it's still a change, and I think that most first time parents are anxious about what they don't know. Regardless of all of the parenting, breast-feeding, and birthing classes that we've taken when he makes his entrance into this world we have to learn everyday what will work for our family. Recently, a friend told me she has taught herself that what might work one day with her daughter might not work the next day and that she has learned to grow with her daughter. I thought thats such a great way to look at all the constant changes. Children go from babies-teenagers and what might work when their newborns or infants might not work when their toddlers and teenagers. I know that Adam and I will be able to grow with our baby boy, and just know that we need to have flexibility. Life will constantly throw you a curve ball and we just need to know how to handle those for our family. And as for being excited, I mean come on- were having a baby!! He's mixed with a little of both of us, and we made him. I mean oh my goodness- this little baby boy has been growing inside my belly, and now were down to the last few weeks and at the end of my pregnancy we get to hold him and just love him. We couldn't be more excited. Just thinking about when he's here makes me start to cry. Crazy how you can love someone so much that you haven't even met yet.